Another Lesson I Am Learning

Who do I live for? Who do I show compassion to? The thought running through my mind is: I am to be living my life in accordance to God’s will with the end result being service with compassion to others.

The next lesson I am learning is how to pull myself out of my circumstances and be of better service to others. That service could be just to have a kind and listening ear and shutting my mouth. A lot of times that is all people need.

Looking around, there are folks out there with situations much worse than my current state. They are dealing with sick children, the care of an elderly parent, and a host of other concerns. The goal is to be able to pull myself out of my situation and to see the needs of other, to show concern for someone else beside myself.

The realization is this isn’t an easy task. If fact, this is one that cannot be accomplished by my own strength and in my own wisdom. There are friends who go through or are going through extreme circumstances in their lives, yet they are able to praise God and work for Him despite of their situation. How do they do this? This is done only by having the grace of God and His Holy Spirit at work in their lives. They live outside of their problems.

This is my prayer for today: to live outside my problems, lean on God, praise Him in my storm(s) and serve Him wherever I am to be.

Pushing the Buttons

A recurring thought or question has been running through my mind the last couple of days. Who is really in control of my life? Me or God?

God is supposed to be the one pushing the buttons in my world. How many times do we allow circumstances to control us and we grab the control out of God's hands? Even if the circumstances in life are hurtful, God is still to be in control.

This is a lesson I have learned the hard way in the last couple of months. Some very hurtful and stressful things have come my way in the previous months. I found myself taking the control and pushing the buttons. The buttons I was pushing was anger and bitterness. This anger and bitterness caused me to become distant and to hurt some very dear friends. Now I am paying the price after choosing to push my own buttons.


This last week, specifically Thursday night or should I say Friday morning (4:30 a.m. to be exact) I had an epiphany of sorts. I woke and found myself praying. God woke me up so that we could talk. The anger and bitterness weren't hurting the people I thought should be hurt. They were hurting only me. He asked me if I was ready to release all of that and to allow Him to have control of me again. I am happy to say that I gave all of that and all of me (once again) to God!

I woke up Friday a changed person. It was almost like someone had given me wings. I had forgiveness from God for everything!! What more could a person ask for?

I know...

...it has been awhile since there has been a post. And, acutally this post will be kind of wasted. I haven't really had any inspiration of late. I am mulling some thoughts over, just nothing concrete yet.