Saturday, December 27, 2008

I'm Sorry


It has been over two months since I have posted anything on here. Life kind of go really busy and I just haven't taken the time to do anything with the blog.

The week before Christmas I went to Florida where most of my dad's family gathered. It was an awesome week. My dad's sister lives down there and his brother and sister and their spouses joined us. It was an awesome visit.

It was great to walk the beach everyday, but one. The sunsets were beautiful. I believe Scott & I both now know where we want to retire.

Scott & I relaxed on Christmas Day. We just took the day to vegetate, something we haven't done in ages. It felt really good to do that.

We hope all had a wonderful Christmas. We are looking forward to the New Year and all it has to bring.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Sharing

I am really struggling today. I feel real inadequate, not very confident. There are so many thoughts and feeling swirling around inside of me. Am I doing any good? Is what I am doing good enough?

There is this hole inside of me. I am not sure how to fill it. The hole is lack of confidence. Lack of confidence in my abilities, in who I am. Who am I? That question comes to me often. I was told by someone that their favorite time period in their life was their 40’s. They said it was because they knew who they were by that time. Here I am on the verge of 40 and still asking that question.

I wish Satan would quit giving me these doubts and having me question myself. It is so frustrating that these thoughts and feelings keep coming around. I get so anxious thinking that nothing is right, that I am not doing anything right or good enough. I get soooo sick of this. I want it to stop!

I know it seems that I am venting, but I need to vent or I am going to explode. What I need is prayer. Thanks!

Harmony

I noticed this verse on the Air1.com front page. I think I needed it today. So, I thought I would share it.

Live in harmony with each other. Don't be too proud to enjoy the company of ordinary people. And don't think you know it all! Romans 12:16 NLT

Living in harmony I guess also means I must live in harmony with myself. That seems like a tall order today.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

It's that time...

...of year where we start thinking about the holiday season (Fall, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's). We are currently at 90 days left in the year. Usually, the hustle and bustle makes me not really enjoy or appreciate the seasons. This year I am thinking it will be different.

Part of it could be our new friends. Part of it I know is that I will spend part of the time on the beach.

Mostly I know it is in my attitude. I am looking forward to focusing on others this season.

Currently, there isn't a whole lot I want or even need. I think God has shown me a lot about contentment. Contentment is total attitude.

I can't wait to host the Church Board Christmas dinner. I can't wait until Women's Ministry goes to The Chicken Coop. I also can't wait for the church fall party. So much to enjoy...no time to be blue or discouraged!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Selfish Independence

I was listening to John McCain speak. His line about “selfish independence” struck me. You see so many times in life, we live by selfish independence. We forget about a Savior who gave his all so that we can be free from our man made prison – the prison of sin. Sin of our own making, our selfish independence. May I be humble and remember what Jesus did for me on the cross. That I might be free from sin and dependent upon him.

Once I am dependent upon Christ, He calls me to be a humble servant for Him. I pray that I might have a servant's heart and attitude.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Tough Day

Today was a tough day for me. Kind of down, but not sure why. Scott & I have been discussing why friendships don't seem to travel in both directions...things seem somewhat one sided. This is a little frustrating.

Then, I got to thinking about the times that I sometimes let friends down. I really want to be a good friend, but sometimes I am not sure I really know how. Sometimes, I am afraid of doing the wrong thing, of getting outside of my safety box, etc. God has really been working on me with this. Being an open person is easy for me. For so long, I have closed myself off for fear of getting hurt. It is my prayer that I can open up and be the kind of friend others will want and where others will want to reciprocate.

Well, that is all for now. If anyone has thoughts, please share them.

Thanks!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Kansas City

Scott & I are in KC this weekend. We love visiting our friends up here. This is Saturday evening. We had BBQ at Arthur Bryant's today and Abuelo's for supper. We have hung out with our friend Charlie and saw my cousin Ron & his family. I even got to meet his brother Richard. That was a lot of fun!!

Sunday we went to church at our former church, New Hope Church of the Nazarene. It was really good to see some of our friends again. Some were out of town that we wished we could have seen, but it was fun just the same. Then we ate at Ruby Tuesday's for lunch with our friend LeAnn. Boy, was that good. (It was our goal on this trip to eat at places we don't have in Wichita. Except for Abuelo's we were successful!)

That afternoon, we hung out a Zona Rosa with Charlie. Then later, we met Charlie and some of his friends at Houlihan's for supper and custard at Sheridan's. That was a lot of fun. It was great meeting his friends.

Monday for lunch we met Roland and Virginia Bales at Smokehouse BBQ. I used to work with Virginia at Nazarene Publishing House. It was great to meet and catch up with them. I got a little shopping in before lunch. I love shopping.

Scott & I would like to visit our friends a little more often. It is great to visit KC, but Wichita it home.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Something Borrowed

Some of this is from me...some is from a devtional I read. The bold stuff is mine. The rest is borrowed. I just thought it was good and wanted to pass it on.

August 16, 2008

New Living Translation online…Bible Study…Topical Studies
Solomon: A Disturbing Story
Jack Klumpenhower
8/8/2008

Deuteronomy 17:14-20; I Kings 3:12, 10:9, 11:4; Deuteronomy 17:17; 2 Chronicles 8:11; Matthew 12:42

“In a moment I’ll tell you why Solomon’s story disturbs me. But before I take questions, let’s be clear that there’s much to like about him. He was king of Israel at the height of its prosperity. He collected tons of gold in tribute from lesser kingdoms. He traded with distant lands to amass still more treasure. And he formed alliances with powerful neighbors, even marrying the princess of Egypt.

Solomon also had godly wisdom. He asked for it early on, and God replied, “I will give you a wise and understanding heart such as no one else has had or ever will have!” (1 Kings 3:12). Indeed, much of Solomon’s wisdom and poetry is recorded in the books of Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, and Song of Songs.

Solomon was spiritually gifted and devoted to God. He used his riches to build and furnish the Temple in Jerusalem. At the Temple’s dedication, he led Israel in one of the most heartfelt prayers recorded anywhere in the Bible (read it in 1 Kings 8).

God used Solomon as a witness to the world. The queen of Sheba visited Solomon to test him, but could find nothing to be snooty about. She ended up praising God, telling Solomon, “Because of the Lord’s eternal love for Israel, he has made you king so you can rule with justice and righteousness” (1 Kings 10:9).

QUESTION: So why does Solomon story disturb you?

Well, if anyone might seem a sure bet to remain faithful to God all his life, it would be prayerful, devoted, most-wise-and-understanding-ever Solomon. But it didn’t happen. The Bible says Solomon married and loved hundreds of unbelieving women. In his old age, “they turned his heart to worship other gods instead of being completely faithful to the Lord” (1 Kings 11:4). He even built shrines for two gods who were sometimes worshiped through human sacrifice. He put those shrines on the Mount of Olives, right across from the Temple he’d built in his early years.

Solomon’s story shows that no amount of spiritual giftedness is a sure sign of lasting faith. No service to God. No witness before the world. No godly wisdom or knowledge. If the heart goes astray, all else is proven false. It happened to Solomon, so it could happen to any of us. It could happen to me.

QUESTION: Then how can you firm up your faith?

I can start by being passionate about holiness. I simply must not allow sin to linger. A closer look at Solomon’s early years shows he should have resisted some “little sins” from the start. His riches served good purposes, but God had said a king “must not accumulate large amounts of wealth in silver and gold for himself” (Deuteronomy 17:17).”

Passionate about holiness. How long has it truly been since I have been passionate about being holy? Do I even really know what it means to be truly passionate about holiness? What does that truly look like? What does Deuteronomy 17:17 tell me? Where my heart is, there will my treasure lie. Accumulate stuff, shows my heart is into stuff. Accumulate holiness, shows that my heart is in pleasing God in all that I do - in thought, action, word and deed.

“God had also forbidden marriage to unbelieving foreigners. We can tell that Solomon sensed his Egyptian wife was a defiling influence because he said, “My wife must not live in King David’s palace, for the Ark of the Lord has been there, and it is holy ground” (2 Chronicles 8:11). But to sense sin is not enough. Solomon seems to have tried to work around his sin or counterbalance it rather than truly stop it. His strategy proved disastrous. Little sins don’t fade away. Allowed to remain, they grow and overtake us.

So I must learn from this to become much more serious about dealing with my sin. I must root it out wherever I see it. I must do better than Solomon. Better than the wisest king ever.”

Sensing sin is just the beginning. Sins may start small, but soon they truly rule my life if not truly dug out. This is the key to holiness, I believe. Allowing God to root out of my life the things that hinder, the sin that entangles.

“QUESTION: Do you really have any chance?

Yes, I do. You see, I’m not better than Solomon but I know someone who is. When Jesus encountered people of weak faith, he warned them by recalling Solomon’s story: “The queen of Sheba will also stand up against this generation on judgment day and condemn it, for she came from a distant land to hear the wisdom of Solomon. Now someone greater than Solomon is here—but you refuse to listen” (Matthew 12:42).

As great as Solomon’s kingdom was, I know a greater story to keep my heart true to God. So alongside my effort to resist sin I must listen in faith to Jesus. I must love the story of his cross and let it permeate my soul. And I must trust his Spirit given to me. In them is the power Solomon never knew—the power to break sin, and to be bound wholeheartedly and forever to God.”

Sin can be broken and resisted: listen in faith to Christ, love what he did for me on the cross…let that story become who I am. Then the Holy Spirit will be given to me as the power to conquer sin and to live only for God and God alone.

Read More: Read the entire passage of guidelines God gave for a king in Deuteronomy 17:14-20. What might Solomon have done to keep his heart tuned to God? How can we follow the same instruction?

Inspiration

Inspiration can come from so many sources.

I have been really bad at this blogging business. However, our friends, Sarah & Sam have inspired me to do better. To be more disciplined. I always thought this was to be a way of just keeping in touch with people. It is really so much more.

Thanks, Sarah & Sam, for your inspiration!!!

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Hello Friends

As you can see, I am not good at keeping up with this blog business. Things in the Messer household have been good. God has truly blessed us.

Ronda visted Faithe & Nathan in Atlanta last November. She really enjoyed the visit and the time spent with them.

Recently, Ronda's aunt & uncle celebrated their 50th wedding annivesary in Oklahoma. Then, her parents celebrated their 40th wedding anniversary in Indiana. Ronda really enjoyed all of the time spent with family at these events.

Scott is started this last Sunday as the interim pastor at Grace Church of the Nazarene. They are such warm friendly people. What a blessing they are!!!

Our next trip will be Labor Day weekend to Kansas City to visit really good friends.

The next vacation is the week before Christmas. We will be headed to Sarasota, Florida for a week spent with Ronda's parents, aunts, and uncles.

That's all for now. Will post pictures later.