Sharing

I am really struggling today. I feel real inadequate, not very confident. There are so many thoughts and feeling swirling around inside of me. Am I doing any good? Is what I am doing good enough?

There is this hole inside of me. I am not sure how to fill it. The hole is lack of confidence. Lack of confidence in my abilities, in who I am. Who am I? That question comes to me often. I was told by someone that their favorite time period in their life was their 40’s. They said it was because they knew who they were by that time. Here I am on the verge of 40 and still asking that question.

I wish Satan would quit giving me these doubts and having me question myself. It is so frustrating that these thoughts and feelings keep coming around. I get so anxious thinking that nothing is right, that I am not doing anything right or good enough. I get soooo sick of this. I want it to stop!

I know it seems that I am venting, but I need to vent or I am going to explode. What I need is prayer. Thanks!

Harmony

I noticed this verse on the Air1.com front page. I think I needed it today. So, I thought I would share it.

Live in harmony with each other. Don't be too proud to enjoy the company of ordinary people. And don't think you know it all! Romans 12:16 NLT

Living in harmony I guess also means I must live in harmony with myself. That seems like a tall order today.

It's that time...

...of year where we start thinking about the holiday season (Fall, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's). We are currently at 90 days left in the year. Usually, the hustle and bustle makes me not really enjoy or appreciate the seasons. This year I am thinking it will be different.

Part of it could be our new friends. Part of it I know is that I will spend part of the time on the beach.

Mostly I know it is in my attitude. I am looking forward to focusing on others this season.

Currently, there isn't a whole lot I want or even need. I think God has shown me a lot about contentment. Contentment is total attitude.

I can't wait to host the Church Board Christmas dinner. I can't wait until Women's Ministry goes to The Chicken Coop. I also can't wait for the church fall party. So much to enjoy...no time to be blue or discouraged!